My Next Victim or My One and Only

Whoever and wherever you may be. I look forward to meeting you or I am proud to have you in my life. But I just wanted to let you know if you don’t already know that I don’t half ass things in my life… especially love. So if or when you love me, I’m the one who loves hard. So if or when you love me, I’m going to love you deeply and only you. Unlike most of the people in this generation… I know how to love the “right way”. I love like no other and when or if I do love you I will change your life, if you are able to digeste it.

No relationship is easy. I’m going to test you. You can test me too. I just want to see if you are even worth the time. If you are worthy of my love. My version of loving the “right way” includes and requires loving equally. I have loved a lot of people who could not match my love. Which is fine, pain means strength and knowledge of what and who I want. I know love can be one of the best things we have in this lifetime. I don’t want perfect, I want honest. But are you willing to risk getting hurt and take chances for the relationship we deserve? I know I am, in hopes you can love me back.

In loving you the “right way”, I give the absolute best of myself and cannot fear pain. You can say “I will never hurt you” but love is a gamble and I know this. In a world full of liars, we need to be upfront people. So I am going to do that now. The best quality about me is that I know how to love. With that said I will never intentionally hurt you. Unlike the others in our generation I want us to work. I want to have that relationship like in the movies. I had one once and I know all the challenges we have to face. We need to have trust and faith in each other. I know that means letting your guard down, being vulnerable, and having blind trust in someone.

Let’s talk about what hurt you in the past. I will tell you mine and all the scratches and marks that came with it. I will even tell you every detail of how and why they happened. It is scary I know, I’m not asking you to do that right way but when the time comes and when it does you will love me more for having to endure such pain and still being able to smile. I can teach you to get along and love your carcasses, instead of resenting them. I will except you at your worst and show you how to love someone at their lowest point.

I do not know if I am easy to love due to my value of love. I am very sheltered. I don’t trust a lot of people. I know it has nothing to do with you but with my past. I have learned that when you love to easy many people do not know how to return it or respond to it. I love really hard and not even the worst misery can change that.

If you are willing to that risk with me, I assure you it will be worth it. It is going to be a roller-coaster. In a society that communicates to only love with half of our heart, I cannot do so. I’m the girl that takes love to a whole new level. Just a limited of things I must ask for, be patient with me. I am very guarded. Trust me first, then I will start trusting you. I am not an easy person to love but if or when you do, I will love you deeper then no other and I will teach you to love better.


Don’t get it twisted.

Just because I love you doesn’t mean I can’t love you from a far. I can love you far enough from your arms where you can’t hurt me in the process. I don’t have to hate you to leave you. I just have to know that you are not the right person for me. I don’t need that unnecessary hurt in my life.

Are you thinking that love is just enough? I realized that in second grade that I needed more. I need somebody that can communicate, that had kindness, lone suffering, that was patient.

Are you willing to do that?  If not, don’t hold on to the fact that I say I love you as a card to say that I am going to put up and tolerate things less than from what i deserve. I don’t have to be right here to love you. UNDERSTAND THAT!  

6 Things That Everyone Needs To Understand To Be Happy

  1. Nobody is actually too busy to respond to you – If you’re not hearing back from someone, it’s because they have deliberately chosen not to answer you.
  2. Everyone has their own best interest at heart – Nobody’s going to stick up for you if you don’t stick up for yourself.
  3. You are never going to please everyone – You’re going to be criticized no matter what you do, so you might as well do what you love.
  4. You’re actions define you, not your thoughts – Your character is determined by what you do, not by what you think about.
  5. The world owes you nothing – You may be the coolest, kindest, smartest, but you’re still not entitled to absolutely nothing.
  6. Nobody is coming to save you from your life – If anyone is going to save your day, it’s going to be you.


Change and Implementation

Change means to act or instance of making or becoming different. Implement means a tool, utensil, or piece of equipment, especially as used for a particular purpose. Some confuse change for being a bad thing and most of the time it is not. Change means that one is willing to grow and develop, either as a person, or a skill. Some transitions are not easy but they are not impossible, it comes in many shapes and forms, the situation also depends on how one takes on change. An athlete can make a few changes that can help the team but also can improve themselves.

Push Harder

            I’m sure everyone has heard the saying “Learn to run when feeling the pain: then push harder”. The saying means when things get hard overcome the obstacle and then some. The harder one works the more effective and most needed that athlete becomes. Plus, their teammates see how hard they are working and works just as hard or even harder. Positive attitude and effort is contagious in a team. The team just needs its own spark.

Comparing and Confidence

Do not compare yourself to other players. It is better to be yourself then trying to be a clone of someone else. Athletes have different potentials or gifts to offer the team that others can’t. Believe that you are special and that you bring something to the team. Low confidence means small or no trust. How can one achieve anything if they don’t trust or believe in themselves?  

Appetite to Change  

Change needs to be wanted. Yes, some changes can be forced upon an athlete but wanted change is more effective to themselves and their team. If one does not want to change then there will be no permanent outcome. The drive to change and improve is also contagious.

Coaches Discipline and Consequences     

Every decision an athlete makes there will be disciplined and there will be consequences. The things coaches make you do are nothing compared to what the consequences are in life. Coaches make athletes exercise to get them guys stronger and more athletic but coaches also use these consequences to help athletes learn from your mistakes and help enforce the coach’s discipline. Coaches are not only there to teach you the game. Coaches are there to help you grow as a person. Because I believe that a good leader/teacher should be someone that you look up to. Class, respect, strength and effort are the main subjects that help one be successful in life and these subjects are practiced in sports. Everything about sports can be related to in life. The next time you have to condition for punishment just remember that at the end of the day it benefits you.