The One Who Likes To Be Benched

I love you so much! Okay, now that is said. You are the most beautiful, smart, outgoing, free-spirited, crazy, loud, aggravating, and annoying person I ever met. I had a pleasure entering your life and becoming a big part of your life. I have shared the most important love in my life. Softball. We have shared amazing crazy and fun moments. Our car rides to my games and back home were so creative and inappropriate. Your mom catered to me and made me gain thousand more pounds and then danced them all off with me. We started claiming each other. Just to show how much our friendship has grown. Thank you for having my back and being the only real friend this past year. You are seriously the one of the few people I can be myself with. You have seen literally all sides of me and you love all of me. I honestly don’t think I can live without you bugging the hell out of me and I love you so much Montoya.

Love/Leave

Don’t get it twisted.

Just because I love you doesn’t mean I can’t love you from a far. I can love you far enough from your arms where you can’t hurt me in the process. I don’t have to hate you to leave you. I just have to know that you are not the right person for me. I don’t need that unnecessary hurt in my life.

Are you thinking that love is just enough? I realized that in second grade that I needed more. I need somebody that can communicate, that had kindness, lone suffering, that was patient.

Are you willing to do that?  If not, don’t hold on to the fact that I say I love you as a card to say that I am going to put up and tolerate things less than from what i deserve. I don’t have to be right here to love you. UNDERSTAND THAT!  

5 Things to Remember to Tell Yourself Everyday

  1. No excuses- Do not hold off or push aside because if you do you will never get it done.
  2. Self confidence
  3. Have a reason- People with a motive tend to get things done.
  4. Don’t live in the past- Its ok to reflect the past but do not let the past determine your future.
  5. Don’t Prioritize Perfection- People that try to be perfect get bummed out about that one thing that didn’t go as plan and do not see what they have achieved. Remember that perfect doesn’t exist.

*REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE ENOUGH*